another.year.to.end.another.year.to.come

another year iz about to end

another year iz about to begin

let's juz hope 2011 wont be as painful as 2010

for those who made me cry,wit every painful tear --->thank u

it's called forgive n forget n tats wat im doin'

for those i cared about n left me hangin' ---> GOOD LUCK!

for those who hated me ---> thank u for makin' me stronger

for those who back stabbed me ---> thank u for showin' me how FAKE people can be

for the two faced people i met, still cant decide which face iz real, mind helpin' me...??

for those i still have n love ---> dont ever change!!!

i love u today, tomorrow n forever 

satu.kilo.lagi

entry kali ini mengisarkan tentang 'weight saye naik 1KG lagi!!' huhuuuuhuuu...pg² before kuar pintu nk ke ofis tuh tibe² rse nk timbang lak..n wallah! naik 1kg lg..rse mcm pelik je sbb mkn da x mcm slalu (meaning makin kurang la) tp nape bole naik nih...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...xpela janji SIHAT n bak kate my syg 'MEMBESAR BAGAIKAN JUARA' wah tagline MILO! hikhikk..overall saye tlh bjaye mnambah 5kg! yeahh mantap mantap sbb syg saye suke bw saye g makan². kuar je makan..kuar je makan..tp die x makan so end-up die reduce 10kg in 1month+!!! UNFAIR!!

hmmm 1kilo punye psl..mcm² hal bole jd. contohnye spt:

trousers n pants smakin ketat so end-up kne beli yg baru!

baju slalu sz XS skrg S blom tentu  muat so kne beli bru jugak!

pipi makin tembam so kne tukar style make-up utk tutup pipi ku yg bulat ini so end-up pg² da kne touch-up b4 g koje!

bile berat da naik automatic diriku jd pemalassssss yg amat utk ke gym so end-up balik uma tros tdoooo!

tp.......... sejak dua menjak my syg dok kt asrama akademi bola kL, kami jarang jumpe so jarang la makan so konon² kurangla sket weight nih 

tp.......... still lg naik nih cane??!!

xpelah layan jek ar..kurus² x cantek..nnt macam anto jerangkong kangkong ;)

my.bestfriend.wedding

Halooooooo Msia!! Hahahaha as i wuz typing the entry's title i remembered tat it wuz diz 1 particular movie title. I LOVE those movie so much back i wuz younger..Well im stil young btw! :P

Anyway....it has been such a looooooong weekend for me.. super duper exhausted! y? bcoz it wuz my besfriend's engagement + wedding. 3 receptions n seriously all of us including the bride collapsed! walaweeeeh wedding of d year la sgt kn.. i can't describe the feeling n tiredness n headaching n throwing up n crying weekends! lets make it short!

Engagement day

so there i wuz helping my bff with her thingy at home on the engagement day. make-up je 2jam ok....! but berbaloi lar. all i can iz time management from the man's side NOT GOOD! huhuuuhuuu.. letih tggu wooo..anyway diz iz her on engagement day!

Akad nikah

during akad nikah memang tragedi disember hokeeeh! terkejut terkujat smue ade.. i went there wit my sayang then smp2 masjid je kay btau 'PA cane jge pengantin nih??! smp pengsan' ok......nenong nenong~~~! mati2 aku igt die sht walafiat! rpenye otw nk g make-up bole plak die collapsed..caused?? DEHYDRATED. kesimpulan yg dpt dibuat 'bakal2 pengantin sila jge pemakanan n rehat anda sblom majlis bermula yer'. If not u end up got 4 bottles of drip! But alhamdulillah even lambat n mcm2 halangan, skali lafaz je the groom managed to do it. yehaaaa~! here's some of the fotos

Majlis Persandingan

time nih pg2 buta aku da cl bff aku suh makan alas perot at least..so kul 11 da ade kt casa 1 siap2 utk makeup even majlis nye kul 1.30. lepak2 smbil gosip2..wah sempat lg tuh! mcm biase asyik dgr shakir mbebel.. 'PA wat kje btol2..PA jge bini sye btol2'...aiyoooooooo! PA lak kne jge pengantin??! xpelaa demi bestfriend ku. alhamdulillah majlis bjalan lancar. cume on tat day pity unty plak yg collapsed. i know she has been exhausted for this receptions. then after few hours, the bride pon starts to feel dizzy n almost faint. lucky we got upstairs as soon as she told us tat she's starting to feel dizzy. up up here we go!! blik bilik sihat plak! hahahahaha...saje je nk cari katil pengantin bdua nih...

since aku jd pengapit n x sempat nk capture pixa, aku cedok je dr 1 of our frens' album..btw, cameraman utk tat receptions iz roland hashim ok... sape x knal roland hashim SILA JGN DOK MSIA! muahahahaha! very low class klau x knal roland :P

hopefully berkekalan bahagia ke akhir hayat... insyaAllah....

loves,

Zara

ketumbit

Ok since aku tgh suffer penyakit nih, maybe aku patot share some info regarding this 'ketumbit' thingy :)


Ketumbit merupakan jangkitan pada pinggir kelopak mata yang mengakibatkan bisul kecil yang berkembang pada bahagian tersebut. Ketumbit boleh dibahagikan kepada ketumbit luaran, iaitu apabila jangkitan berlaku pada folikel-folikel yang terdapat pada bulu mata, atau ketumbit dalaman, iaitu apabila jangkitan berlaku pada kelenjar minyak yang terdapat pada kelopak mata.

Ketumbit kebiasaannya terjadi pada kanak-kanak. Walau bagaimanapun, orang dewasa juga berkemungkinan untuk mendapat ketumbit, bergantung kepada tahap penjagaan mata mereka.

Penyebab

Ketumbit adalah disebabkan oleh kelenjar minyak yang terletak berhampiran dengan kelopak mata menjadi tersumbat. Kelenjar minyak yang telah tersumbat ini kebiasaannya akan dijangkiti oleh bakteria seperti bakteria Staphylococcus aureus. Penghasilan atau pengumpulan minyak yang berlebihan menyediakan keadaan yang sesuai untuk pembiakan bakteria. Antara faktor-faktor yang boleh menyebabkan kelenjar minyak tersumbat ialah :

* Tekanan
* Pertukaran hormon
* Mengguna peralatan solek yang sama buat satu jangka masa yang lama atau yang telah dijangkiti oleh bacteria
* Diabetis
* Kandungan lemak yang tinggi dalam badan
* Kekurangan vitamin dalam badan

Patogenesis

Kelenjar minyak yang terletak berhampiran dengan kelopak mata tersumbat dan mengakibatkan minyak yang dihasilkan oleh kelenjar berkenaan berkumpul dan mengalir keluar daripada dinding kelenjar tersebut membentuk seperti gumpalan kecil (bisul) di pinggir kelopak mata. Bisul tersebut kebiasaannya amat sakit, berwarna merah dan bernodul. Kebiasaannya, kelenjar minyak yang tersumbat amat mudah dijangkiti oleh bakteria dan ini menyebabkan pesakit mengalami kesakitan yang teruk dan kawasan di sekitar kelopak mata yang terlibat menjadi kemerahan.

Ketumbit kebiasaannya kelihatan putih atau kekuningan seperti jerawat. Ketumbit boleh berlaku pada bahagian sebelah mata sahaja atau kadangkala ia boleh melibatkan kedua-dua belah mata dalam satu masa, secara serentak.

Bisul yang terhasil pada kebiasaannya akan surut dengan sendirinya apabila bahan yang menutup lubang kelenjar minyak tersebut dialihkan. Jangkitan oleh bakteria juga akan pulih apabila nanah dikeluarkan dan bahagian kelenjar tersebut dibersihkan.

Simptom-simptom

* Bisul di bahagian atas atau bawah kelopak mata
* Bengkak di sekeliling kelopak mata
* Sakit
* Kelopak mata menjadi merah
* Kelopak mata terasa sakit apabila disentuh
* Mata menjadi pedih
* Mata berair
* Gatal-gatal di kawasan bisul
* Pesakit berasa tidak selesa semasa mengelipkan mata
* Sensitif kepada cahaya yang cerah

NYatalah ketumbit ni xde kena mengena dengan mengintai anak dara orang tgh mandi ke or anak teruna org ke…heheehee just to share. So kesimpulannye aku rase aku tgh stress sbb asyik ngadap pc and lappy je

holiday.mood

yeay!! jap lagi da nak btolak off to a 

HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ohh sungguh tidak sabar!

tp blom siap packing!

yg penting bw sunblock!

ohh villa sila tggu kami yoooo!

to be update soon...............

today.was.a.fairytale

today was a fairytale?

sounds weird

it shud be yesterday was a fairytale

why?

coz everything seems to be so perfecto!

why again?

definitely in love again

but why?

it just happened

for real?

yes for real im so darn happy now

worth it?

think its worth a try

possible?

he just make me smile n laugh n loved each n everyday

in the air?

definitely love iz in the air

 coz 

he's amazing just the way he iz

just began

kotak.hitam

While i wuz doing my work sudenly diz 'black box' appeared in my mind so i just switched another window and login to my blogspot. So what is the "black box"??

In science and engineering, a black box is a device, system or object which can be viewed solely in terms of its input, output and transfer characteristics without any knowledge of its internal workings, that is, its implementation is "opaque" (black). Almost anything might be referred to as a black box such as a transistor, an algorithm, or the human mind.

The opposite of a black box is a system where the inner components or logic are available for inspection, which is sometimes known as a white box, a glass box, or a clear box. The modern term "black box" seems to have entered the English language around 1945. The process of network synthesis from the transfer functions of black boxes can be traced to Wilhelm Cauer who published his ideas in their most developed form in 1941. Although Cauer did not himself use the term, others who followed him certainly did describe the method as black-box analysis.Belevitch puts the concept of black-boxes even earlier, attributing the explicit use of two-port networks as black boxes to Franz Breisig in 1921 and argues that 2-terminal components were implicitly treated as black-boxes before that.

Black-box testing is a method of testing software that tests the functionality of an application as opposed to its internal structures or workings (see white-box testing). Specific knowledge of the application's code/internal structure and programming knowledge in general is not required. Test cases are built around specifications and requirements, that is, what the application is supposed to do. It uses external descriptions of the software, including specifications, requirements, and design to derive test cases. These tests can be functional or non-functional, though usually functional. The test designer selects valid and invalid inputs and determines the correct output. There is no knowledge of the test object's internal structure.

Well I think i had given some info for u guys to freshen up your brain! Huhuuuhuuu Enjoy reading!

my.bestfriend

It has been such a long time i didnt wrote an entry bout real life. Huhuuu so lastnite just right after i got back from outstation, my bff buzz me asking me to accompany her for dinner. With such a tiring n exhausted days, i still went there coz she's my bff. So we had a long talk bout life n her wedding... im so hepi for her.. finally she's gettin married to love of her life ;).. how time passes by so fast. i still remembered i 1st known her at stadium. 3 of us watching her love's game.. me,her n my good old time friend. since that we were 'close'. four of us were the bff couples! hahahaha! gladly she managed to go through until her wedding. she has been a great friend to me..she wuz there during my ups n downs..n im there when the drama startssss..we done crazy things togetha n it wuz fun! hmm let me list it down..................

baskin robbins every 31st!

cheering for Hoben Jang Hoben while sitting in Gomo Kelate Gomo territory!

window shopping for hours

shopping in F21 till broke!

waiting her to finish her meal like 2 hours!

gossiping

crying

laughing

cursing

shoppin same shoes togetha

Nandos'ing togetha

secret secret secret thingy togetha

looking at d wall togetha (hahahahaha! u owez said 'ooo mlm u tgk dinding u yeh..?')

pillow talk

sleep over

lotsssss more!!

well i still remember there's a time midnite she came over to my place just to accompany me. it wuz my birthday nite n d most worst bday i ever had. tat nite were famous as she said 'malam pndg dinding'.. she comfort me tat nite as my other bff were not around..basically ol of my bff were true friends..they were around when im down..there when im ups n there when in in sober..

the day
the day she said 'makcik! i nak kawen!' i paused! cudnt say anything n just smile... in my heart felt so hepi for her that she's gonna be married to a very nice n kind man. after ol d dramassss they two were making n im always 'makcik, tolong!' im sooooooo hepi! we used to say 'later kite kawen, kite tukar2 tupperware yeh makcik'...'later kite kawen, kite jd jiran tau makcik'..hahahah! tat wuz so the past.. sumthing i've let go but we're gonna stil exchange tupperware n definitely gonna be neighbours at my own house babe ;)

fighting
haha! who doesnt had any arguments right?? like they said...'sedangkan lidah lg tergigit..inikan pula kawan sndri..' ok i made that up! huhuuu..we used not to talk to each other for such a long time just because 'that issues'..n sudenly u buzzed me?? i wuz like 'wow! she buzzed??' well never had any grudge in my heart since u were my bff dear..past is past..past is sumthing we need to let go n move forward.

thanks
thanks for being my ups n downs bff. appreciate it so much gurl! n just for u, i'll off d entire week to help u ;)

HOT
hot & spicy! gossipsss n hot stuffs made us 'panaaaaaaaaassss n hangeeeeen' but i owez said to u 'sumtimes certain things we need to just keep quiet n let go..keep it low..move forward n ignore stupid peps' Theres a time when u're on top, peps wud crash u down...just "SABAR"


to you my dear Nurul Fatiha Abd Hamid... congrates to u n Shakir Shaari. Hope u both gonna face the married life with patience along the way..

CONGRATES!!!

the.way.we.are

It is really hard sometime to interprete who we actually are..

Better evaluation is definitely from external...

Most of the time we are not who we think we are.. funny isn't it?

It is common that 

We are who our friends are... as simple as that...

The idea is...

If we want to grow.. we need an access to information or knowledge that is useful.

In term of perception... 

We need to be around people that have good perception, interpretation and positive.

The other idea is..

As we grow.. our knowledge pool grows as well

But we need to be careful on the knowledge that we gathered and the correctness of the knowledge and information...

So choose wisely :D

wedding.and.gowns

Marrying the person whom you love dearly, is the most exciting moment in our lives. On this spectacular day, we are in our best wedding gown or suits, walking down the aisle and receiving blessings from families and friends. It is a big day and history in the making for us. We all want our wedding day to turn out to be perfect and memorable, like a fairytale come true. There is no room for mistake on our wedding day because mistakes and unpreparedness are going to hamper our mood and the romantic atmosphere. Perfection is what we want on our wedding day! A fabulous wedding requires meticulous planning and preparation. The reality is that we may not have the time and resources to successfully plan and execute the wedding event effectively and effortlessly. 


There are endless details to arrange, many logistics to organize, large numbers of vendors and service providers to interview, to hire, schedules and timelines to prepare, and most importantly budgets to manage. These alone may cause stress and fear leading to the important event which is the wedding day. Many brides and grooms run themselves ragged in the months leading up to their wedding day. Most of them went by in a blur state of mind because they had to attend to the tasks and schedules, and worry about their wedding outcomes, coupled with little time to relax and enjoy the wonderful moment.

The wedding event is like a movie in the making. Many couples realize they may not be able to play the roles as the director and actor at the same time and expect the results that they visualize. More and more couples now recognize the importance of a wedding planner to step in to assist them, in providing tips, guidance, advice and handle all the planning and execution, so that their wedding day can be perfectly orchestrated. Engaging professional assistance is a good way to reduce stress and may also save you time and money.

Fashion??

Here's a glimpse of which wedding i loved most. It was one of my good friend back in Kuantan and her day were absolutely fabulous with her dress n gowns on her day! Out of so many friends' wedding, i just totally falled out for hers'!!

just right after 'akad nikah'

the reception

the 'Royals' Reception'

just look at the gown that flows... ain't that beautiful...??

Daulat Tuanku before the reception begins

clearly.. Rinie looks like a Queen...suits her blood well ;)

There are so many things to share but it's just a glimpse right? Well can't wait for my bestfriend's wedding in a another 2 weeks time. Hope everything goes well ;)

Oh last weekend i had terrific time with my future IL and we went for wedding in Ipoh. What a great reception. An Indian Muslim were married and having a 1 Malaysia reception! Woot woot.. At first i thought 'where in world am i?? did we just came to the wrong wedding??' Turned out to be 'fabuloussssss!' Here's a glimpse of it also ;)

 a mixed traditionally malay-indian reception 

 suprised with the reception

the 'couples' that went crazy over there :P

Till then...Hope to write something more interesting next time.. Tadaaa~!

Lourve,

Zara

soulmate

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. 

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Naaah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. 

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master 

romeo.and.juliet

The play is set in Verona, Italy, where a feud has broken out between the families of the Montegues and the Capulets. The servants of both houses open the play with a brawling scene that eventually draws in the noblemen of the families and the city officials, including Prince Escalus.

Romeo is lamenting the fact that he is love with a woman named Rosaline, who has vowed to remain chaste for the rest of her life. He and his friend Benvolio happen to stumble across a servant of the Capulet’s in the street. The servant, Peter, is trying to read a list of names of people invited to a masked party at the Capulet house that evening. Romeo helps him read the list and receives an invitation to the party.

Romeo arrives at the party in costume and falls in love with Juliet the minute he sees her. However, he is recognized by Tybalt, Juliet’s cousin, who wants to kill him on the spot. Capulet intervenes and tells Tybalt that he will not disturb the party for any amount of money. Romeo manages to approach Juliet and tell her that he loves her. She and he share a sonnet and finish it with a kiss.

Juliet’s Nurse tells Romeo who Juliet really is, and he is upset when he finds out he loves the daughter of Capulet. Juliet likewise finds out who Romeo is, and laments the fact that she is in love with her enemy.

Soon thereafter Romeo climbs the garden wall leading to Juliet’s garden. Juliet emerges on her balcony and speaks her private thoughts out loud, imagining herself alone. She wishes Romeo could shed his name and marry her. At this, Romeo appears and tells her that he loves her. She warns him to be true in his love to her, and makes him swear by his own self that he truly loves her.

Juliet then is called inside, but manages to return twice to call Romeo back to her. They agree that Juliet will send her Nurse to meet him at nine o’clock the next day, at which point Romeo will set a place for them to be married.

The Nurse carries out her duty, and tells Juliet to meet Romeo at the chapel where Friar Laurence lives and works. Juliet goes to find Romeo, and together they are married by the Friar.

Benvolio and Mercutio, a good friend of the Montegues, are waiting on the street when Tybalt arrives. Tybalt demands to know where Romeo is so that he can challenge him to duel, in order to avenge Romeo’s sneaking into the party. Mercutio is eloquently vague, but Romeo happens to arrive in the middle of the verbal bantering. Tybalt challenges him, but Romeo passively resists fighting, at which point Mercutio jumps in and draws his sword on Tybalt. Romeo tries to block the two men, but Tybalt cuts Mercutio and runs away, only to return after he hears tha. Mercutio has died. Romeo fights with Tybalt and kills him. When Prince Escalus arrives at the murder scene he chooses to banish Romeo from Verona forever.

The Nurse goes to tell Juliet the sad news about what has happened to Tybalt and Romeo. Juliet is heart-broken, but soon recovers when she realizes that Romeo would have been killed if he had not fought Tybalt. She sends the Nurse to find Romeo and give him her ring. Romeo comes that night and sleeps with Juliet. The next morning he is forced to leave at dusk when Juliet’s mother arrives. Romeo goes to Mantua where he waits for someone to send news about Juliet or about his banishment.

During the night Capulet decides that Juliet should marry a young man named Paris. He and Lady Capulet go to tell Juliet that she should marry Paris, but when she refuses to obey Capulet becomes infuriated and orders her to comply with his orders. He then leaves, and is soon followed by Lady Capulet and the Nurse, whom Juliet throws out of the room, saying, “ancient damnation” (3.5.235).

Juliet then goes to Friar Laurence, who gives her a potion that will make her seem dead for at least two days. She takes the potion and drinks it that night. The next morning, the day Juliet is supposed to marry Paris, her Nurse finds her “dead” in bed. The whole house decries her suicide, and Friar Laurence makes them hurry to put her into the family vault.

Romeo’s servant arrives in Mantua and tells his master that Juliet is dead and buried. Romeo hurries back to Verona. Friar Laurence discovers too late from Friar John that his message to Romeo has failed to be delivered. He rushes to get to Juliet’s grave before Romeo does.

Romeo arrives at the Capulet vault and finds it guarded by Paris, who is there to mourn the loss of his betrothed. Paris challenges Romeo to a duel, and is quickly killed. Romeo then carries Paris into the grave and sets his body down. Seeing Juliet dead within the tomb, Romeo drinks some poison he has purchased and dies kissing her.

Friar Laurence arrives just as Juliet wakes up within the bloody vault. He tries to get her to come out, but when she sees Romeo dead beside her, Juliet takes his dagger and kills herself with it. The rest of the town starts to arrive, including Capulet and Montegue. Friar Laurence tells them the whole story. The two family patriarches agree to become friends by erecting golden statues of the other’s child.

on.tumblr.now

oh im on tumblr now! 

BUT 

for the link, will post on my 

coz

friends.bestfriends

• FRIENDS: Will comfort you when he rejects you.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will go up and ask him, “It’s because you’re gay, isn’t it?”
• FRIENDS: Will be there for you when he breaks up with you.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will call him up and whisper, “you will die in Seven days…” (Note, if you don’t understand this, watch The Ring. Then watch The Ring 2. Then watch Ringu.)
• FRIENDS: Help you up when you fall.
• BEST FRIENDS: Keeps on walking saying, “Walk much, dumb ass?”
• FRIENDS: Help you find your prince.
• BEST FRIENDS: Kidnap him and brings him to you.
• FRIENDS: Will ask you if you’re okay when you’re crying.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will laugh at you and say, “Ha Ha, Loser!”
• FRIENDS: Will offer you a soda.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will dump theirs on you.
• FRIENDS: Will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will throw you a tampon and push you in.
• FRIENDS: Gives you their umbrella in the rain.
• BEST FRIENDS: Takes yours and says, “Run, fucker, run!”
• FRIENDS: Will help you move.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will help you move the bodies.
• FRIENDS: Will bail you out of jail.
• BEST FRIENDS: Would be in the room next to you saying, “That was awesome! Let’s do it again!”
• FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail again
• BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you saying “DAMN!” we messed up!
• FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
• BEST FRIENDS: Help themselves and are the reason why you have no food.
• FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
• BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!
• FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
• BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.
• FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.
• BEST FRIENDS: Have you on speed dial.
• FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
• BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, “My bad…here’s a tissue.”
• FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
• BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story…
• FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowd’s ass that left you
• FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
• BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say “I’M HOME.”
• FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.
• BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.
• FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)
• BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.
• FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say “Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don’t waste!
• FRIENDS: Would read and ignore this.
• BEST FRIENDS: Will repost this :)

less.is.more

Perempuan. Suka bertanya soalan-soalan pathetic seperti;


Awak sayang saya tak?
Awak rindu saya tak?
Awak sayang saya banyak mana?
Bila si dia tak balas, atau lambat balas, mesti nak sentap guna ayat, "Kalau awak betul-betul sayang tak perlu pun nak fikir-fikir boleh terus jawab je.."


Perlu ke perasaan sayang diberitahu setiap hari? Eh tak tak. PERLU KE ASYIK NAK TANYA ORANG ITU SAYANG KAU KE TIDAK? Elok-elok dia sayang terus jadi muak dan hilang rasa sayang. You know what? Sesuatu itu mungkin akan kurang signifikannya jika diberi secara mudah dan berlebihan. Less is more lah.

Perempuan. Selalu nak berfikir sesuatu yang tidak perlu/tidak penting secara mendalam. Bila si dia seperti dingin, atau suram, atau tidak bersemangat seperti selalunya, mesti nak fikir entah apa-apa.


Dia sudah tidak sayang kah?
Aku sudah tidak menggembirakan diakah?
Entah-entah dia dah jumpa orang yang lebih baik.
Kemudian mula mengaitkan kejadian si dia tolong hantar Melah ke asrama, kekerapan si dia berjumpa si Suzie di perpustakaan untuk menyiapkan kerja kumpulan, dan terbayang kata-kata si dia memuji Fiona pandai main boling. Semuanya hanya spekulasi, bukan apa-apa pun. Tapi mesti nak rasa sedih, lalu mula nak buka bunga-bunga cari gaduh minta perhatian, dan akibatnya gaduh besar. Padahal pucuk pangkalnya bukan apa-apa, hanya emosi sendiri. Tak fikirkah mungkin si dia ada masalah keluarga/kewangan/pelajaran atau apa sahaja? Kau sepatutnya menjadi orang yang paling menenangkan hatinya, bukan penambah stress. Haishh...

Perempuan. Selalu nak terasa apabila si dia memuji perempuan cantik lain. Or perempuan lain yang cantik. Whatever. Ini aku tak boleh terima. Siapa tak suka perempuan cantik? Aku sendiri suka melihat dan memuji perempuan cantik, apatah lagilah kaum berlawanan. Menghargai sesuatu yang cantik tidak membuatkan kau bertambah hodoh pun. Biarlah si dia nak puji perempuan cantik pun, kau sendiri tahu dalam hati dia hanya dipenuhi wajah kau kan?


Perempuan. Selalu nak sibuk bertanya kisah silam si dia. Siapa bekas kekasih? Berapa lama bersama? Hadiah apa pernah bagi? Bila si dia enggan bercerita, pandai pula guna ayat, "Ala cerita jelah, Ai open je. Ai boleh je terima..". Tapi bila si dia benar-benar bercerita, mula nak membanding-bandingkan, mula rasa terancam, mula rasa berbaur-baur perasaan. Sedangkan kau sendiri yang memaksa segalanya dibongkarkan.. Girls, please please please do not let your/his past ruin your present happiness. Tak berbaloi kot.

Perempuan yang berkawan baik dengan lelaki, apabila si lelaki bercinta, bertunang atau berkahwin dan mula menumpukan perhatian pada hubungan baru lalu rengganglah sedikit persahabatan itu, mesti nak terasa hati. Mesti nak sentap. Sket2 nak sentap. Aiyooo x sesuai lah.

"Sejak kahwin lupa dah aku, aku ni kawan dia bertahun-tahun..".

Haih. Kalau kau benar-benar sahabat yang baik, mesti kau akan lebih memahami situasi dan keutamaannya. Being a true bestfriend, you should just pray for his happiness instead. Unless kalau kau memang menyimpan perasaan lain terhadap kawan baik kau tu.


Perempuan. Bila bergaduh sibuklah nak bercerita canang habis pada orang lain. Ketika itu si dia itulah yang paling buruk, paling teruk, pendek kata memang menyesal lah kau bercinta dengan dia. Bercerita pula penuh berjujuran air mata, dan orang yang mendengar mula mengasihani dan mula berpandangan buruk terhadap si dia, yang deep inside kau tahu dialah yang sangat kau sayangi dan sangat kau mahukan. Tiba-tiba esok lusa sudah berbaik, sudah ketawa bersama, sudah makan bersuap kembali. Dan kau tanpa segan silu menceritakan betapa bahagianya kau pada orang yang sama yang mendengar kisah sedih kau kelmarin. Kau fikir apa yang mereka rasa? *loser*

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Perempuan. Kau, dia, aku. Please do not let your emotions cloud your judgement. Be the smartest woman. If you do not appreciate yourself, do not expect others will do it for you.